Not Bigger, but Better Not Successful, but Effective

Journal entry #10

(Previously Published. Updates on what's happened since this post at bottom of page)

“I just want someone to tell me what to do! I don’t know where to go and what to do it’s too much! I see the vision but I’m wildly spinning on wheels. I’m tired and exhausted! Just tell me!

I need someone to take my hand, that’s all! This thing, this vision, has so many legs and I’m trying to do it all by myself and nothing is getting accomplished. Maybe this will work. Maybe that. Ugh! Somebody…take my hand! Please, I’m desperate!”

Living abandoned, obeying my purpose and trying to live it out doesn’t mean all the answers will just be there. There are steps we have to take and to be honest there was a moment I had no idea what my next one would be or should be. Even though I’ve received ample amount of help and support through the CW Family and our coach, I could tell there was still that one thing missing. I could feel it! I just knew there was something else….

So I kept asking and praying and asking and praying.

While standing in the kitchen one evening, I was expressing to my husband Hoit how I just want someone to tell me what to do, and I’ll do it!

You see, I don’t want to just do or be a consumer. I want my daily tasks, vision, and heart to be effective to the generation I have been called to. Not great, not bigger, but better.

So what is it, Lord? How can we be more effective? Who is that person, that idea, that thing that will tell me, “Now, this is the next step.” Over and over I kept repeating the scripture in Isaiah 30:21,

“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

Then one day on a beautiful afternoon a few weeks ago, I sat at my desk looking out my window with my earphones on as I listened to a webinar for non-profits. My husband, who also works from home, played with the kids during the hour meeting so I could fully concentrate without distraction. During that call I received confirmation that we, the Created Woman Foundation are different; something I had been feeling for a while and even wrote about it in my journal entry #9. We are not just a non-profit, we are a ministry and we need additional tools. I totally believe it was a God moment, a God thought that came into my head that went something like this:

“If there is an organization like this for non-profits and organizations that help launch church plants, surely there are organizations that help launch ministries. Right?”

With that thought, google came to the rescue!

There it was, or should I say, there they were! Yes, places do exist! There’s help, wisdom, someone to take my hand and tell me which way to go step-by-step. Provision!

You see, when God gives you a vision, provision is right by its side like a package deal. Too often we mistake provision with being financially stable and find ourselves stuck thinking but we don’t have enough. But sometimes it comes in a way of detailed plans, a how-to if you will. Provision of the how. For me, provision came only after I confessed what the vision actually was – an actual ministry. (Journal time: Have you confessed yet what you are called to do? Release any fears or misconceptions and take the time to write out your confession. Then read it aloud. When you use your voice and speak the words, they begin to build bridges of truth in your vision and heart.)

After that, all I had to do was ask! “Lord, what’s your provision,” and He showed me.

I felt a weight being lifted; one that I didn’t even know I had.

You see, I have a vision to help women to find their “Go” and everything I do is reaction to that vision. I don’t want to react to what others are doing, how pretty they are or what others think I should be doing. I want to react to the purpose God has given me in a way that’s effective to the here and now and for the generations to come. {CLICK TO TWEET}

I want to react in a way that makes us better and build efficiently so that we can be effective. Because if we are effective, we have successfully launched.

Remind yourself.

Not bigger, but better.

Not successful, but effective.

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Well, there’s a lot of behind the scenes going on in the CW Family which means you might not see us in front of the scenes very much in the next few months. But please don’t think that we or I am gone. Quite the contrary!

Like I mentioned, we got our building plans, if you will, and it’s time to build.

We are in a time of building structure. We are putting up walls, laying down the floors, wiring and plumbing are up next so we can open our doors like they are new. A place and environment that is safe. We are creating a structure so that we can talk, grow, and successfully launch each other into the very purpose in which we are created to be.

Sure, this is all symbolisms, but you get my point. There’s no physical building (yet!), but the structure is being built behind the scenes for our programs to flourish so we can mentor and teach women of all generations and seasons of life.

We want to help you discover your “Go” by providing you strategies and practical tools that are relevant, tangible, and life-giving.

We are being intentional.

To sum up, we are designing every detail that will soon come to light and we can’t wait to share them all with you! Little by little, each will be revealed, but in the meantime we will continue to bring you fresh and thoughtful posts each week.

Stick with us. Pray for us. And if it’s in your heart, contact us and let us know you want to be a part of the building process.

The bottom line is this: We want to be effective. And in order for us to be effective, we have to be efficient, thorough, and detailed.

Not to be bigger, but better.

Not to be successful, but effective.

Journal Time:

Have you gotten stuck in the routine of your purpose losing the effectiveness of your “Go”? Stop, confess once again who you are and ask for provision. Not to be successful, prettier, more popular or gain more followers, but to be effective and leave a legacy for the generations to come.

What’s your provision?

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lunch and learn

Created Woman is hosting a Lunch & Learn on August 3rd at the Arthouse Austin for women who love all things fashion and faith. During our time together, I'll be sharing the vision, where we are going and then we will break into different groups as team members share on different programs and outreach opportunities with a time for Q & A.  Here's why:

CW is growing! It's an exciting time so we are inviting you to grow with us as we impact women around the world through fashion and faith. So, if you are a #LegacyBuilder and have the desire to create a movement that will last for generations to come, then mark your calendar for August 3rd.

Who are we looking for? Glad you asked!
Writers - Speakers - Stylists - Outreach - Advisory & Governance Board - Social Media - Editors - Event Coordinator - Mentors - Administration - Financial Support

~ Don't fit into anyone of those categories? ~ 
No worries, we've got you covered! Join our CW Ambassador Program where you'll get to be a part of different areas of the Created Woman Foundation. We'll help you find your niche!

Lunch & Learn
11:30am - 1:00pm
6:00 pm - 8:30 pm
Austin Arthouse
11505 Anderson Mill Rd,
Austin, Texas 78750

CW Advisory Board & Family will be on hand to present different programs and outreach opportunities and answer your questions.

Box lunch provided so be sure to reserve a box and RSVP on our fb page page or email us at

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In The Know

Isaiah 44:24

The Message (MSG)

 24God, your Redeemer,    who shaped your life in your mother's womb, says: "I am God. I made all that is.    With no help from you I spread out the skies    and laid out the earth."

Knowledge to Build On

Our lives are an open book to God. He is all knowing. He is the beginning and the end. Its hard to imagine there is anything He has not seen. Anything we could do or say or go through that He has not seen before. The funny thing is that even the people in the bible try to hide who they are or what they have done and eventually come to the conclusion that He has been witness to all of it. Even from the start of our lives. When we were hidden in the darkness of our mothers womb he knew even that part of us.

Life in the Now

Today we live in a age where social media can take the happenings of our life and share it with the world. Our lives good bad and ugly can be out there for all to see. We can share our thoughts our photos even our gossip via our phone to a network of people we love, like or are just facebook friends with. Some things we are happy to share or even brag about. Other things we would rather others not post or tag us in. Knowing we have a loving God who sees it all we can sometimes write off the details of our lives as things he just knows because he is God. He has been there from the start. We don't need to tag Him in our facebook pics because He already knows. Or maybe we have things we would rather Him not know or not be tagged in.

In the process of living out my own life in a social media setting it occurred to me that God would love for me to make the effort to share my experiences my joys and my struggles with Him too. That yes He already knows all my business because He is God and omnipotent. However He would rather know because I told Him because He is my friend.

Think about it Are there times you are more excited to share good news with friends rather than God?

What would it look like for you to tell Him first?



God, Thank you for your love and grace. For longing to be our friend.

Remind us this week that you are ready to hear whats going on in our lives

the good the bad and the ugly


Shake them Haters off!

"But in that coming day, no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the Lord;their vindication will come from me. I, the Lord, have spoken!"                                                                                           Isaiah 54:17 NLT

"Shake them haters off". Slang for, "Brush off the jealousy, anger and envy that surrounds you."

     At work, there's times you can cut the tension in the room with a knife, and somehow you know, all eyes are on you....and not for the right reasons. But you didn't do anything wrong. In fact, you're confident you're walking out the Lord's plan for your life. Far be it for them to understand, or you to waste your time trying to explain.      But what happens when the murmurs and dirty looks become too much to bear. You begin to think of all the possible ways the "haters" could harm you.      STOP! Remember whose you are. Remember, your dad doesn't like anybody messing with his baby, and for that very reason, he covers you with his protective shield and carries you while he tramples over the snakes. There's no plot, scheme, gossip or ill-will that could ever touch you. In fact, it's not even your place to put up a's his and trust me, he doesn't lose. Smile as you walk past them, and as you do, "shake them haters off!"

Dear dad, I thank you that I can come to you and admit I'm scared. In exchange, you give me peace and courage to look my enemies in the face and realize they must look awfully small from where you're standing. Help me to remember your truthful word that promises, "no weapon formed against me shall prosper".

"How blessed you are, O Israel! Who else is like you, a people saved by the Lord? He is your protecting shield and your triumphant sword! Your enemies will cringe before you, and you will stomp on their backs!”  Deuteronomy 33:29.

"You hide them in the shelter of your presence,safe from those who conspire against them. You shelter them in your presence, far from accusing tongues. Psalm 31:20