lust

Texting to feel, Praying to heal

"If you play with fire, you're going to get burned." How many times have we heard this saying? It isn't until we're left with a fresh wound and later an unsightly scar, that we realize, "Whoever said that was right".   "Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak."                                                                                            Matthew 26:41 Ladies, lets keep it real. Singleness, however fun, can seem lonely without the warmth of a mans  touch and embrace. So when the Lord tells you, "It's not that time yet," it's frustrating to  look at yourself everyday and wonder, "I'm young, intelligent, beautiful and successful, so why don't I have someone?"   I recently went out with a group of friends and found myself bombarded by couple is love....better yet, couples in lust. I heard the enemy saying, "You'll never have that. Who would want to love you?" And with that, I began me descend. Ugh, the late night text, or the "booty call" as it's more commonly known. I reached out to an old flame I thought would come to my rescue and feed my insecurities with meaningless touch. As if that wasn't bad enough, I was rejected. He told me he was in a "committed relationship", but would love to see me the next day for coffee just to catch up. My ego was bruised, my body left cold and my soul distraught over how I had strayed so far. I thought I left that stuff behind when I gave myself to Christ, but the flesh IS weak.   Apparently, I didn't feel bad enough because I was still contemplating taking the "sloppy seconds" and having coffee with the guy. That was until I told the story to a friend who told me, "Cancel it!" She was holding my feet to the fire and made me realize, I was merely being tempted by the enemy. The truth is, to God, I'm always first pick . I'm loved both emotionally and physically by Him and unlike any other man, He WILL be faithful.   So, I axed the meet-up and slammed the door in the enemy's face saying, "I'm the Kings daughter and not just any man will do. I'll wait on the Lord to provide  the perfect son for his perfect daughter.     Heavenly father, Help me to wait patiently on your perfect will and lead me away from temptation. Help me remember that I AM lacking nothing, so long as I am filled and satisfied with your love. Thank you for teaching me and my future mate (whomever he is) what a real husband. More than that, thank you for choosing me to be yours first. I AM your bride!     "As a dog returns to its vomit, so a fool repeats his foolishness."                                           Proverbs 26:11 "He remembered us in our weakness. His faithful love endures forever."                                           Psalm 136:23